I feel so unworthy of Your love, Your grace, Your mercy, Your forgiveness, Your joy, Your peace.
I realize there isn’t anything I can do to earn anything You have to offer to me. But, for some reason, my heart feels like I need to at least try. Try to be worthy of You. Try to be worthy of Your free gifts. Try to be worthy of Your calling.
I’m not. On my own, I’m absolutely nothing and so unworthy, so not worth Your time. But, Your Son in me, Jesus Christ who I am one spirit with… He makes me worthy. He makes me valuable to You. He makes me worth Your time, worth Your energy, worth You.
For some reason You created me… You created me for You.
For some reason You wanted me… You want me with You.
For some reason You sent Your Son … to give me an abundant life in You and so I can spend eternity with You.
I’m not perfect, no where near, yet You never give up on me. You never stop working in me, working on me, molding me and shaping me. You began a good work in me, and You are faithful to keep working until You finish the work You began in me. Even though I’m not worthy. Even though I wonder why You put up with me, why You haven’t given up, why You keep working… You keep working. … Because You are Faithful.
You must see something in me.
You say You have a plan and a purpose for me, and it must be something really good or You wouldn’t keep giving me chances and opportunities to grow in You, to develop into the person You want me to be, that You have purposed me to be. That sounds crazy to me, that You have a purpose for me.
Some days I miss the mark, I mess up so bad that I can’t see past the mess ups. However, You don’t let them stop You or Your work. It’s not that You don’t see them, but You look deeper until You see Your Son in me.
Yes, I believe in You. Yes, I believe in Your Son, Jesus Christ. Yes, I believe He rose from the dead and that He is coming for me some day. Yes, I have asked for forgiveness, and the blood of Jesus has washed me clean from every sin. Yes, I am a new creation in Him. Yes, it is Him that You see in me.
I don’t feel like I’m worthy for Him to even live in me, but He does. That same Spirit that rose Jesus from the dead lives on the inside of me. And Your Spirit is a gift to me, to remind me of my inheritance to come… to be in Heaven with You. He is a reminder of all the promises that I have in You. He is a reminder of the treasure that I have awaiting me, Jesus Christ, the Holy and Anointed One.
You Father, Your Son, Your Spirit, You’re my reward, my portion, my prize. There is nothing and no one that compares to You. There aren’t even words that are adequate enough to express what You are and what You mean to me.
I thank You, God, for not giving up on me, for not throwing in the towel, for not seeing me as a hopeless case, for not holding my past sins and present failures against me. I thank You for Your grace, for Your mercy, for Your forgiveness, for Your love, for Your peace, for Your joy, for the joy I have in You. I thank You for seeing me how You have designed and purposed me, for seeing me for who I am in Christ. I thank You for allowing me to humble myself before You and for not just letting me ask You for forgiveness but for actually forgiving me and casting my sins far from me. I thank You that You don’t see me as unworthy but as Your daughter, as Your precious child. I thank You for working in me, for not giving up, for not getting discouraged by my choices or my lack of faith or confidence in You, in who You say I am, in who You have created me to be, in who You want me to be. I thank You for calling me, for choosing me by name. I thank You that You do have a work You want me to do, and that by Your grace (and in spite of me) Your will and purpose for me will be accomplished. I thank You that the work You have begun in me will be completed and that I will be ready for when I meet Jesus.
Thank You for Your goodness. Thank You for Your gentleness. Thank You for Your grace. Thank You for Your mercy. Thank You for Your patience. Thank You for Your loving-kindness. Thank You for Your love. Thank You for Your Holy Spirit. Thank You for Your Son. Thank You for the blood of Jesus Christ. Thank You for preparing a home for me in Heaven. Thank You for You.
Thank You for seeing my heart, for seeing me, for knowing me… really knowing me.
Thank You for taking the worthlessness that I was and making me worth something to You, for giving me value in Your Kingdom and in Your eyes. Help me to honor You, to bring You glory, to worship You with my life. Create in me a clean heart, and have Your way in me.
With Sincerest Love,
Your Daughter, bought with the price of the life of Your Son, Jesus Christ